Thursday, February 11, 2010

The Truth about being Honest

In this moment right now I'm so stressed and have much to do but i thought it appropriate to update my blog:) Right now I'm doing a pre-internship in a fourth grade class and I absolutley love it. Its so hillarious to hear some of the things that they say. Sometimes they just look at you and are dead serious and say some of the funniest things. One morning we were going around asking if you could trade places with anyone who would it be and why....well this little boy raised his hands and said Brad Pitt cause then all the ladies would love me! It took everything I had to not bust a gut laughing. I really appreciate their honesty and candid humor. I often times am known for being painfully honest. Sometimes I would feel bad about this, but I'm learning more and more that the most important thing is to almost be honest and forthright. Obviously, use tact but being truthful and honest are very important to me. I expect people to know that when I speak to them they can expect nothing but the truth. Anyway, just some random thoughts..Here are some recent pictures. We went on a much needed Utah trip last weekend just for the day. We went to a basketball game and went dancing. It was good! We also recently had Elder Richard G. Scott come and us three girls got to welcome him in. Then, we had an Institute Valentines Dance!





Thursday, February 4, 2010

A New Year..A New Me??

Alright...So I must say that the beginning of this year has been quite interesting for me. I haven't felt quite like myself. There have been some events that have helped contribute to this, but ultimatley I realized some things about myself. I don't say this to be negative in any way...I think its just time to face the facts in my life. I'm 24 and almost done with school ( I will be 25 by then..SCARY!!) But I'm realizing I have to grow up real soon. That is so scary. I mean I'm not immature or anything but im getting to a point in my life where I don't have to go on in college where I could get a real job...with this comes real responsibility and real life. I don't know how ready I am for all of that! So...that is one aspect. For those of you who know me..know that I'm a pretty social person. Well, lately I have not felt very motivated to be super outgoing and social which is sooo strange for me...whats up with that? Is this just a stage you go through when you get to be my age and unmarried? I need help and advice from all of you! What do you think I should do with my life?? I of course would love to be married, but right now that is just not the plan for me and I don't want to dwell on it..I want to live life to the fullest. So, one thing I realized is that I hold onto a lot of things such as pain and hurt from my past....that is one thing I'm trying to work on so I allow people into my life more easily. Its funny because I have a lot of trust issues from events in my life and yet everytime I try to overcome this someone else comes in and breaks my trust I had with them...its like this vicious cycle and I don't know how to trust people more. On the other hand I have great people who have always stood by my side and have always fought for me and I treat them not so well. What am I trying to gain? Why do I treat those who treat me the best sometimes the worst? Is this a common human character flaw? Well, these are some of the things that come with adulthood you start examining who is really most important in your life and what is most important. Who is most important to me?? I would say my family. I have the best mom in the world! She loves unconditionally and is a constant support for me. I have awesome siblings and step family members. I feel blessed to have all of them in my life. I have an awesome Aunt Mary who is a constant love and support to me too! I have a great grandmother who I got my personality from....always speaks the truth but you know they love you! I have great extended family and cousins! I also have great friends...Chelsey and Mikkel they've been constant friends to me for the last 5 or so years even when I was immature and oversensitive at times. I have family friends who have been there through thick and thin like the Toros, the luncefords, they Meyers. Then, I have Brittney who has been so great to me..I have friends from high school like Katie, Shauna, and Dana who are still cheering me on this race of life..Thank you! I have wonderful friends and people from my Second home of Minnesota who are cheering me on as well, including my additional sisters who were my companions and sisters in the mission field. These are some of my dearest and truest friends! I have my current ward family and people in Virginia who are sooo awesome! As I'm writing this I'm just soooo blessed and feel soo grateful and this makes me reflect and think hey life isn't so scary with all these great people to share it with. Thank you all for being apart of my life and making life always worth it! I value your love and friendship and any great suggestions or advice for life you have for me its always appreciated!! Anyway, I just started typing and this is what came out, it may not make sense but its just what is coming out of my little reflective heart right now. I guess my trust issues are not so big and the few people who have caused me to be mistrusting are really in small comparison to all the people who I trust, love, adore, respect, and admire! Thank you all for your examples and the wonderful lives you have lived! You are all a beacon of light in my lives. I love you!

Here are some recent things I got to do....My sweet Friend Chelsey was here from Germany and we got to hang out..it was such a blast! We had a girls night and it was soo fun! Here are some Pics to show you the fun times we had!



At the Game

Adorable Colty...At the Game!

Hanging Out!



Playing the Funnest Game on the Wii...Just Dance


Eating at Chillis

Girl's Night Out!!